I don’t know how to have a proper reset. I know how to stop and take a break, but not actually how to start over and take a fresh new start. Sometimes I think I am missing out on an important life skill, other times I think that it’s a good thing.
When I left high school, I wasn’t given the choice to have a gap year, I had to go straight to uni and start studying. That didn’t mean I couldn’t have taken a semester or 2 off once I had started uni, but starting straight away at uni really really burnt me out. I was determined that I was going to finish my degree as soon as possible, but going through HSC-like conditions every 6 months really screwed with my wellbeing.
And here’s where the holidays came in. Holidays were a time for relaxing and working hard to make money. Occasionally I would think “hey, here’s a good time to have a complete reset and learn some new skills that’s would help me more next semester”. I never did, I entered the next semester stressed as ever and never really learning from my mistakes.
When it comes to work, I don’t really separate myself. I can maybe not think about work for a solid 2 days straight, but I can’t hit that reset button to have a complete refresh. Everything needs to be done in a certain way, and I am always thinking of ways to improve what I am doing. While I might not be able to have a full reset I do know how to hit pause.
While having baths with Lush bath bombs and creating the an at home spa experience seems good for the self-care routine and to hit pause, it’s not a route for me to help me completely refresh. I think I just need to escape to the wild for a bit, get bitten a few (or many) times by mosquitos and just have a really long nap. The current culture at the moment of having the time to start over doesn’t work for everyone’s lifestyle. Hitting pause sometimes is just as good, even if you can only do it for one hour at a time.